How I felt after taking the pills.
Monday, November 30, 2015
Friday, November 6, 2015
Our lives are sad enough as it is, and we do not need to read other people's sadness.
They already released the last online Pokèmon competition, The Spooky Cup result and this is my ranking from 50,000 registered players.
So I am at number 5,368. Not bad at all. It was definitely very challenging but fun. The next online competition is happening next week. All you have to do is register online and you are set
I have Pokèmon competition coming up. I am excited because it would be my second official contest. It's gonna be exciting, and again I will be the oldest one, but it's cool. I mean studies has shown that when you invest in experiences, the effect will last much longer than say a fancy phone. However a fancy phone is something you use everyday,so I might take that fact with a grain of salt but then experiences last much longer than your average phone. So that fact is true then
Another competition, another round of experiences and I still have one more Pokèmon that I haven't prepared yet to make my team balanced.
Saturday, October 24, 2015
Well, I was busy a bit.
Busy for what you say?
Friday, October 16, 2015
I gotta love that word. It's like a combination of two things that I like. Wandering around and lust. Evil, very evil.
My birthday is coming up soon and I decided to give myself a treat. A treat of travel. Last year I bought a PS3 and I love it. I don't play it as often as I should, but I still love it. (I play my 3DS more often, as you would notice)
I would like to visit either two countries that I have visited before, Korea and Japan.
Why would I visit countries I visited before, why not try other places.
BECAUSE I CAN, SO SHUT UP!
Well, yes, the statement above is true, but both countries is special to me.
Korea is fantastic, I love Korean food. I love their cosmetic line. I love how very friendly they are to Malaysians. I mean, we do go there a lot. However I just like to be aloof there and just chill out at the nearest cafe while watching the people go by.
Japan hit's close to home. It's the land of Pokèmon and sushi. Both are incredibly awesome there. I would not mind to take a cheap flight there with a ridiculous long transfer time and stay a share house just because I love it there. However I just went there like 2 weeks ago.
I could buy a new phone and just chill out in Langkawi or something right..
This ability of not making any decision is costly. Since all of the promotion ticket has ran out and that promotion with the new Galaxy Note 5 with free powerbank and wireless charger from Celcom is over. I feel like kicking myself, but at the same time, I wanted to take risk and see where it would lead me.
Why not right? Might as well take a few risk.
Monday, October 12, 2015
Yeah, sure why not. It's a dying art. Well at least from my experience. Remember my last post, yeah that one.
However this is a new class for mostly newbie. However its funny to find out some people actually have blogs, but they forgotten about it. LMAO!
I guess it's good to find new blood to read. However, little do they know about trying to blog. If you see from my post, most of it was published well after midnight. Lately that is the only time that I could get actually any inspiration to write,
So what did we play?
We played Pokèmon. Yes we played Pikachu
As I suspected, I felt old. Seriously old. Most of the participants are still students. Well thank goodness for these frame-less glasses that made me seem young? Maybe not.
I came along, aloof here and there. Then suddenly out of nowhere, a wild friend appeared. Made 2 friends actually. Both are still students but we have a bit more in common other than Pokèmon. One guy came from the same kampung as I am, while the other was a student in UTP, which is home to a lot of my volunteers.
The battle was intense as hell! It was fantastic because the pros gave me tips on how to improve my team. Since I am in love with Ampharos, there were suggestions on how to make him better for VGC which includes make his slow speed work and increase his defenses.
Saturday, October 10, 2015
It's just one of the ways or steps that you learn when you want to become a writer. It kinda makes sense though. Writing is practicing.
When we had a drama class, the adviser swore on pen and paper. He meant that certain studies has shown when you write on a piece of paper using pens, you will developed better mental health? or something. I don't know. I am too lazy to provide the source.
He is right though. Think about it, first you think of what you what to write. Secondly you move the pen into letters, that form words and becomes sentences. As you write, you read and you review. So it makes one hell of a party in your head. Its better than slamming your fingers on the keyboard.
Hmm, I don't know, what about those who can type without looking at the keyboard. I am doing it pretty well. I wrote most of the sentences above without actually looking at the keyboard. Yes, I do make mistakes but I did correct it.
So the words from my head, goes into my fingers and my fingers press the appropriate keys to form letters, that form words and turn into sentences. Which will then tell a story.
Was he wrong, my drama class adviser? Am I right? Who knows. If you type to much, you will loose the art of hand writing. However as we digitized, typing is something we do naturally. Samsung has been doing it for years with its Note series, while Apple being Apple, says it revolutionilized the pencil by making the iPencil. *facepalm. Hey whatever rocks your boat right.
I think it is important for children to diversify their motor skills, a bit of writing, painting and typing. This shit ain't easy to do okay, the typing without looking. For me it's like playing a musical intsrument and the words are my notes and the song is my story.
Ah well, whatever it is, if it helps to write, why not?
Friday, October 9, 2015
Whenever I see a Vine, YouTube, Instagram or Twitter, those are original content. Well at least those who do make them. We do have those who simply re post and it just pisses me off really. Those that post original content and have a strong followers, now that is even crazier.
What can I do? Well definitely most of these people has a rather humble beginnings and I was happy to be a part of the group that watches them grow.
Do I have a group of people watching me grow? Hmm, well maybe during my active days. Now? Eh, who knows. It's crazy that I actually have more content but I refuse to upload them
That is soo not how rich successful people get rich and success.
You gotta work with what you have eh?
Wednesday, October 7, 2015
What is normal? Well the picture above is Lopunny, a Normal type Pokemon. It may look like a female character, but it can be male or female. It's also one of the Pokemon than tends to get over sexualized by horny Otaku perverts. Eh, watcha gonna do right.
I don't feel normal. Never had a normal childhood, normal school life, not normal anything. In fact I tend to be attracted to abnormal things. Erghh, it seem some of it is just bad choices. We are so not getting into that mode.
Normal mode for now means going back to work after a 2 day travel, 3 workshop, 2 daytime work travels and 2 night time visits in a different country.
Now I am going back to the real world, which is my museum world and back to the place that gave me the opportunity to break from the normal. I must keep in mind the one year promise I made to the. It's actually in contract so I am screwed if I don't follow it. Meh.
However yeah, it is fun. Remember all that talk about social media. Damn, it is much harder than it seems. Its even harder when you don't have a reliable equipment to use. Thank goodness I bought a good laptop. I mean the old one can still be used normally but really if you can't YouTube then what it the point of paying RM 243 a month for 20Mbs Internet.
Ah well, I guess there is nothing wrong about not being normal. When they say normal is boring, they can't really put what is normal. What is normal to you, seems so abnormal to me and vice versa.
I feel better now. Maybe because I writing more, maybe because I have a hot cocoa, maybe because I have the AC on to just chill me until bedtime.
I really should upload all my photos of my trip. People like that kinda thing. It helps them to plan.
Monday, October 5, 2015
I like my Android and I like my PC but lately people seem to push me around in another direction and it is driving me of the wall. I like Androids with the games they offer and the freedom to choose a variety of phones. It is also a lot cheaper. I like my PC because it runs a lot of games that I like, besides who plays games with a Mac? Maybe those simple games maybe, but not those high definition games.
However Apple has been tugging my soul. Yeah, my soul, not my wallet, not my heart, not my mind but my soul. It is scaring me a bit. If I did not have a good head on my shoulder. I would just probably swipe my credit card now and just get that Apple product that I want, right this instant. I even have the Apple website open in one of my windows.
I would get the Iphone because it seems to have a lot of cool features now like 4k recording, live pictures and just a sleek exterior. It also has this pastel metallic pink that they called Rose Gold and I felt the gentle color SCREAMING at me. What the hell Apple. When I was in Japan and they already launched Iphone 6s, I was watching their commercial in Japanese and was hook on it, even though it did not make any sense. Once I switched it to English, I hate it that the voice in the commercial was being self depreciating ish about the phone features and I love self depreciating humor. God Dammit.
When I went to Japan for a workshop, a god damn spokesperson from Apple came and presented a video on how Ipads and Macbook can be used to make Ebooks that is simple to use and yet very detailed. Aaaarggh, Apple has definitely gotten it hook on education a LONG time ago. I am in the education sector and I want to create my own brand, so I feel like I need an Ipad and Macbook now because in order to create a better future for myself.
It all cost money though, but I feel like I could used that money for my personal trip to Japan because I have so many things to see, but you know what would suck though? More than half of the people there uses Iphones. WTF! Those waterproof Japanese phones are rare to see now. Using an Android seems to be the hipster thing to do.
Thursday, October 1, 2015
Yup, I finally made it here to Tokyo Japan. Actually it was already in my plans to travel to Tokyo for my 31st birthday, but as fate would see it, I was sent here for training.
The gist for the 3 days training is
- This is a one year commitment project
- I am screwed
- I get to learn new skills that will help me in the future
- I got to meet cool new people
- I am soo screwed
- I get to see bits and pieces of Japan, although Odaiba does not feel like Japan at all
- I feel nervous with the responsibilities that handed upon me
- I am not sure how will my bosses react to the plans
- Can I handle this amount of power again?
- Euww Apple's marketing managed to get to me.
Thursday, September 24, 2015
Baby carrots for crunch and home made garlic basil dip (a friend made it, I bought it) for a snack. Definitely a snack because I ate it for dinner and now I am definitely hungry. Supposedly it a healthy snack since it combines flavour, texture and some fat together. However I ate the whole bag of carrots. Sure it's a vegetables, but it is a starchy one, so it's kinda dense it energy. Let's hope the fibre helps to reduce those calories a bit. I did go heavy on the dip though, I think about 2 tablespoon was already gone. Eh, what can you do.
These midnight post, will never have any readers. Heck, blogging is thing in the past? Unless it's porn, celebrity porn or political figure porn, not many people would read it right?
Meh, what to do, that means I can write more stuff without fear of people finding out. Malaysian's don't read that much outside the gossip blogs. I am safe. Maybe, probably..eh vaguely.
When you become a grown adult supposedly one should settle a fight in a civil way. LOL, it feels more like Civil War where everybody is killing each other or the Cold War, where passive aggressiveness or refusal to cooperate is the tools.
Meh, all you can do just walk away and let it blow over. I have worst fights before where we ignored each other pretty much for a few years. That was in our 20s though, still young, still a kid. Who knows right?
All I want to do now ,it to flex my blogging and social media skills. I will need this in the future.
Wednesday, September 23, 2015
Suddenly it hit me, that I am so worried what will happen in the future.
My company seems so secure but who knows, what if it went bankrupt and I am out of a job.
What will I do?
I was thinking of Uber and renting out my house.
Now the sudden out burst of social media, almost every night.
When I say social media, I am mind vomitting on everything. Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat, Blogger, Tumblr and Dayre.
It's like built up pressure just exploding out. As fun it was to read about it. Now it's time to make some content out of it.
Tuesday, September 22, 2015
All this talk about social media, has made me socially ill.
I kinda hate people now. I think that is what happened when you overdose. However when you do get around to it, and analyzing each famous people there is a formula to it.
You have to be easy on the eyes. As much as beauty is subjective, most people who are popular on social media are fit beautiful people. We love pretty things so we follow them like bees.
However a pretty face can only go so far. These people have content. Whatever they do, they seem do it well that people like them.
Next, these people seem to have one tag line or one thing that made them memorable.
Natalie Tran from Community channel has the infamous "Your mum rates me" or "porno music slash comment time"
Pew Di Pie, Jackseptieye, and Markiplier has their signature opening remarks.
Yes, most of them are Youtuber, but videos are really the ones that can show their personality or at least their online persona.
Its sweet, since I stop blogging for a long time,the only people that actually made me remember them is Red Mummy, because she likes the color red, hence the name. While Hanis Zalika, with her cutesy inbelogsaya blog name, which does in sync with her writing, made me remember her, although she stopped blogging once she got famous.
Ah well, maybe its the league of silent readers that support these blog. The rest just went on Facebook.
Now however I am trying to get into Tumblr, Dayre, Snapchat, Twitter and Instagram. The last two seems mainstream, but Tumblr is quite young, while Dayre is something that Nuffnang requires us to do.
Damn, I have dug a hole so deep I can't get out
Monday, September 21, 2015
If you use it wrongly, you are definitely lame.
#sorrynotsorry, what does it mean?
Well urban dictionary says it's how bitchy girls get their way if they feel they are right regardless of any situation.
A bit more surfing blew my mind, sorry not sorry is apparently is a real thing and people used it to defend themselves in court or in any accusation.
It is a away to avoid litigation (getting sued or punished) that is the result from admitting guilt or responsibility. Other than the silly hashtag, you can either reword it to say "mistake are made" or " I'm sorry if your offended"
Other than winning arguments, I think it's used to make decision or actions that seemed unpopular. Yes, you maybe the bad guy, but shit has to be done so fuck them all. Besides, being an adult means, taking care of shit, and not pass it on to other people. Defending your rights and decisions while jumping hoops and fences.
Damn, I love this word. Time bulldoze everything out of my way.
Friday, September 18, 2015
Now most people have moved on to other social medias such as Facebook, Twitter and Instagram. The younger or hipper crowd will go on to Tumblr, Snapchat, and Periscope. The gorgeous ones will have a Vine, Youtube or Keek.
You can't really make money with Facebook unless you are ultra popular or something. Even the likes and post are skewed so that YOU had to pay to Facebook.
That left us with other social medias. I am thinking if you are popular enough companies would recruit you to promote their products.
However, in the end, a personal blog, is personal. It's your life story, your problems, but shared to world. I guess Facebook and other social media has taken that part right now.
Anyhow, that was during my post grad year. Where I was in the lab all day and felt incredibly lonely. However when I started working, the post kept getting less and less. Maybe because I am starting to feel happy. I have money, I can buy stuff and I had a lot of new things to do!
So little by little, there were no more post. It was just not me. A few of my friends whom I met through blogging has also stopped. Maybe because they moved on to other social medias such as Facebook and Instagram, with the latter being the default.
Why am I starting now? Do I feel sad again?. In a way, yes, I do feel sad again. So it's time to write. However it seems that my future is linked closely to my blogs.
How I write, how I feel, how I observed and how I analysed is actually something a future company might be interested in. They don't teach you to become Science Communicators in museum nor do they teach you how to make content on blogs.
When I clicked back at some of the more popular bloggers on my list. It was amazing where they are now. Some are actresses, some a famous business owner, some has published their first book, some joined the ultra marathon. I am happy that they have moved on. Am I sad?
I love most of the days in my job, I have travelled to countries I always wanted to visit, I went back to America, I bought a house and there is just so many things, that I have done in the post blogging days, just like the rest of the bloggers I read.
It fun now to actually go back to read all of their past adventure that they have done since I stopped. Now I should write all the adventure that I have been on, and I hope you would enjoy it too. Whoever you are.
Wednesday, September 16, 2015
It was quite awesome really. I used to have readers, but all of them tapered out, because I don't post anymore and it is really sad to see that. However after a talk with my sister, blogging is more important now than ever before.
I found out that I don't have a particular set of skills, but a mash up of random things. That is basically what a Science Communicator is. You can't really place us in a normal office setting and you can't really pick us up from the Universities and expect us to work just like that.
Even the training is slightly weird. Go into one and you come out reborn, like really, reborn.
Anyhow, here is to the future and here is to a new blog, separate from this, which is has a theme that I can follow and people can relate.
It will be a science ish blog. Science ish, because it won't be real science with charts, references, and p value. but more to a story about random shit.
And yes, lot's of cursing, but maybe I have to edit out the curse if I want this to be public, but then maybe I should create my own image of the world to see.
Friday, July 3, 2015
How do you know, you are leading, or you are working together. In my line of work, I get kinda confused. Do I listen to them or do I make them see my vision. I think I need to show the latter, but then they might see something that I have not seen before.
What happened to my passion of cars. I loved reading them as a teenager but once I started working, it seem like a thing in the pass. All I want now is a car that saves fuel and has low maintenance cost. However these cars get bullied very easily in the highways, but then I don't give a shit. Just overtake me la already.
Wednesday, April 8, 2015
Now we are mature(?) adults, it's hard to justify that anymore. Other than grown up stuff such as jobs, bills and maybe family, there is also other things in life that we learn to do along the way. Perhaps a new hobby, more TV shows and so on.
Then some of us, got really into it and spend all of our waking moments in games, or be able to be free from parents support and spend all of our money in games. Either getting all the latest consoles, to built the perfect gaming rig.
I already have a PS3, PSP Go, DS and the 3DS. Not forgetting the various games I have in my tablet (that will not charge anymore) and the games I installed in my laptop.
It's a crazy thing
Sunday, April 5, 2015
What? I just agreed to a 35 year mortgage that will take 1/3 of my salary.
I guess it's not instant enough, maybe after I manage to move in, I will get that big rush.
Right now, those mini rushes are nice, but wait I just bought a RM 1050 bag! (discounted to RM450) what, still no feels? Perhaps I should have worn it more frequently. You can actually still smell the leather, or perhaps this is how leather is supposed to smell anyway.
Sigh, see, these are all the signs that state, even if you spend a fortune, you will never gain happiness. If you want to spend money, or buy something, you should always buy experience.
Which is why I think I may need some mini vacation time by myself. Just me, the hotel and it's pool along it's buffet breakfast. It's actually simple. I check in the room at 2pm, sleep, play games or whatever till I feel like sunbathing at the pool. Then once children starts to fill up the pool, I'll drive out to eat, or, I will just buy some instant noodles or just buy an early dinner to eat at night.
Then spend all night just lounging on the bed while playing video games or surfing the net. Then I would wake up to scarf down breakfast before checking out the hotel.
It's a perfect plan!!
Besides, there are plenty of nearby 4 star hotels that will do this just fine, or I can just drive to PD for a quick getaway by the beach.
Although you will probably skip the Starbucks or the beach, because there is just too many people!
Wednesday, April 1, 2015
Ah well, I guess I have to imagine the bastard getting off at Masjid Jamek LRTstation and into his cubicle while staring at his 4 walls. Then he would imagine how tough his life his and how he wished it would change which made him an asshole to other people.
Or he could be a successful business man living his dream but having a bad day. Pffttt....looks like any salary man to me.
I am doing okay. I like my job, I like the place I am, and I like the random things I could do. I love the museum. There are some bad days, but nothing like greeting a visitor and helping them out or guide a new batch of volunteer to be a better person.
If I was behaving a bit evil, then the volunteers would have to be on their tippy toes because I will scrutinize every single details of their movements and action.
Not bad really, I get to use the public transportation and save loads of money. The ugly ass uniform allows me to be sloppy, but nothing like a good pair of cardigans to make me look slightly professional. Now that I have a RM 1200 bag (before discount of course) I will look slightly more professional. It's a nice leather bag that hopefully will age quite well. However I still can't let go of my ugly canvas Quicksilver bag. At least I know that brand provides really high quality stuff at my size.
I think writing is a hell lot better than looking at Facebook. Facebook is really annoying at certain point, yet I can't stop looking at it. No matter that. I think it will do just find to do my own thing
No more going to people's places for whatever reason. I rather sit home and play games or watch TV. I should join the gym again. It's a bonus to have my day off during the weekday. Gym is relatively empty in the day.
Can't stand the machoness of these body builder ugghh their comradely just ticks me off.
Maybe I am destined to be alone, not lonely, lonely is pathetic, alone is having fun by myself and have the world at the tip of my fingers.
Will I change? Perhaps living all alone in a house would change me to find someone to settle down with. Or maybe not.
Friday, March 20, 2015
It's one of the most adult thing you can do, and one of the most expensive thing you can own. Buying one is such a pain in the ass which sometimes makes you just want to rent forever or live with your parents.
However some people based on their own calculation, prefer to just rent or in a long term lease compared to buying.
I never knew how hard it is to buy, or maybe I just got too excited and easily pushed by everyone.
This is my step on how to buy a house using plain old simple terms
- Check how much loan are you qualified. Go to a bank and discuss how much loan can you apply. Just provide what other loans you have and they might figure it out.
- Prepare yourself for the loan
- Identification card
- 3 months pay slip
- EPF form
- Staff ID
- Letter from company saying you are a worker
- 3 months bank slip
- booking receipt after you paid the fee (this is the last step, just make sure you prepare everything else first)
- However it might change due to discounts by the bank or if you bought a new home it's a discount by the property company
- It's better to just have the extra 11%, if it's less you can use the funds for something else.
Saturday, February 21, 2015
I can't believe how many times I would mumble I really hate everyone. I mean I do, but I don't. Get me? It's confusing to be inside my head, its even more confusing when it feels so incredibly hot. It's the dry season again as I write and the temperature is just too hot. It does not help that I just came back from Winter.
It's kinda sad though, that some parts of northern USA is experiencing a heavy blizzard to point that it is comical and life threatening. You seldom die due to hot weather because you can just open the window and have some water to keep dehydrated. In the cold, you will die!!! and even with all that padding, if your body temperature does not increased, or warm up, you probably die still.
Oh the horror.
I loved the dry cool Seoul weather, but the temperature dropped to a -12 Celsius and that is just bone chilling. I felt that I could withstand it, if I had a proper jacket. The one I had on seemed perfect for fall or something.
Maybe all this hate is due to that travel euphoria that just died. Ergh..Now I am getting ready to buy a house and already I felt the pinch. I guess I have to live in my parents home. I don't want to. It's time to spread my wings. There are just something I just don't want to be responsible too.
Really grown up right...
Who knows right, It's still to hot as I am typing and I think my wrist is busted or something
My final erghhh
Sunday, February 15, 2015
Fridge RM 1,300
Stove RM 200
Microwave RM 200
Oven Toaster RM 100
Rice Cooker RM 100
Washing machine RM 1300
TV RM 1000
Heater RM 500
AC RM 1600
Those are excluding fans, light fixtures and grills
Ceiling fans should cost me around RM 150 each, I suspect I will be needing at least 2. One for the master bedroom and the other one for the living room. Maybe I will add another one for the dining area, but who knows.
The grill to cover my windows and front doors should set me back around RM 5k. I'll think I will leave about RM 3k for lights or less. Just simple light fixtures. I plan to keep the house relatively basic. I might opt out for a basic kitchen top, but who knows, if I don';t have enough money, I won't do it, if the it annoys my eyes a lot I might just do
Now lets go to Ikea and find out how much I can spend. I might have trouble here, because Ikea dos not deliver to Nilai. So lets just pick up pieces that I know can't fit in my future car.
Bed RM 300
Mattress RM 1000
Sheets RM 200
Pillow RM 200
Closet and Cupboard RM500
Couch RM 1500
Small table RM 30
Tables RM 300
Chairs, RM 100
Lol..none maybe... use some banquet tables or something...
My romanticized version of moving in is my house will only need to have
This would cost me around 3k? That is the minimum amount, that I could definitely live day by day, the rest of the stuff can be bough slowly and surely.
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
Maybe the high from that overseas trip just brought me down to earth hard. Maybe, or I am just being a little bitch. At least one thing is for sure, I did something new with my messy room. I finally found use for my Ikea lamp that I bought years ago.
This new laptop that I bought using credit, has a red on black keyboard. This little shit is almost invisible in my room. I almost regret not getting the MSI tablet because even though it is more expensive with a slightly lower graphic card, the damn thing has a lighted keyboard. Just like those expensive Macbook computers.
This laptop is only 2999 MYR, you can't even get a Macbook Pro with that money, but you do get the 11inch 128gb Macbook Air. I guess if you are just typing, surfing Internet and watching movies, it should be fine. However I wanted something more.,
Ah well, no point in crying over spoiled milked. Fake that confidence and soldier on!