I am never ready. Whenever I think I am ready I am never ready. When I think I am not ready I am actually well prepared. Sounds confusing, but somehow this irregular logic plays out quite wel in my lfe. Its also creates problems because if I don't feel ready I will never take that first step.
So what happens, I get a shoved from the back or I actually get pushed to do it. So does that mean I need pushy people in life?
How can you people wear fitted clothes let alone skin tight ones. I always wondered about it since I feel uncomfortable wearing one. I love baggy loosey things, it feels so comfortable and free. I do have clothes that fitted but I don't like how they cling to my skin. Hence they are rarely worn except if I am going out withsome one that needs to be impressed.
Weight not an issue. Lots of big, bold, bulky people wear fitted clothes and lots of thin, slim, lean people wear baggy loose ones.
Am I against fitted clothes, judging by how rich my tailor is from the amount of clothes I bring to him, I actually embraced it in a good way.
The only time I felt truly comfortable in wearing a fitted jeans was a pair of Guess jeans at Klcc. It was really fitted but suprisingly comfortable, I was flabbergasted by it. Did I bought it? I would but although it was comfrotable if left very little imagination to anyone when I wear it...
Yes, sleep another fave topic of mine. Ever since I started volunteering at Petrosains sleeping has became a task I must do, instead of a pleasure that can be fulfilled. To little sleep will lead me feeling incredibly tired by the end of the day while too much sleep will make me feel like I just wasted some valuable time. During this fastung month if I go back to sleep after sahur, I will have the craziest dreams so vivid that I actually believed what my drean character told me. Besides I know I am taking my job seriously at Petrosains when I need to give out proof and be 100% sure in answering in my own dreams.
It might be just a simple misspelled word of a regular greeting, is actually an inside joke among my new friends at my new part time job at Petrosains. After more than 3 months of waiting for Viva, I decided that I just can't stay at home anymore. Its not like I spend all my days studying anyways. Anyhow it was a great experience and for me it was an outer body event. After 4 years of mostly doing things on my own, being thrown into a large group of people I never met and then working at a place where new people constantly come, is different like day and night.
It was a great way for me to practice all of the lessons I learned during my masters, whether it is inside the lab or out side of the lab. I am glad that both lessons paid off during my training. Am I totally a different person? Not really, I still have that lonely ranger thing going on, along with my nerdiness, constant babble, or sometime shy without a reason but its like a switch that I can turn on and off now.
Its really a wonderful experience to have and something I would remember for a long time
Can a person change plan so fast and expect me to follow it? Like a friend said to me "If we make a promise and it involves other people, we better stick to that promise". Well I did ask them if I was free to do my own thing this Saturday, and they said yes, so I made plans and an hour later they said no, because we have something to do this Saturday and just go do it another day.
So simple, their answer is. Just spend quality time at home.
Wow, living at home ruins your communication skills. Sure you can know how to manage a home, but it only works if you plan to become a housewife. Last time I checked I don't have a vagina, and no one is sending an engagement ring to me yet, so I definitely not training to be a housewife.
I am very pissed off but at the same time, I had 5 days of training at my new working place on proper communication and I am not going down without a fight. No way in hell, that I will let her win. Sorry, but its not even a big deal, and you already have me full time for nearly 4 months, its time to let go.
The only thing my little brother told me that I found usefull is, if you say you don't want to do it, then don't do it and don't bitch about it when you did do it. This happens regularly to me, I don't want to do it but I still do it, and then end up complaining about it.
That's just so tiring to do. I have to learn to say no in a polite way, but I can't let go of my sarcasm.