- near sighted
- far sighted
- you miss me (awww!!! hugs hugs)
Saturday, September 28, 2013
Monday, July 29, 2013
I am in charge yet again in a program conducted during fasting month, as with last year. It's not so bad, kinda used to it. but wow, I get really sleepy and bored during my hourly rounds. Must stay awake and alert. I feel sleepy practically all the time now, I always tell myself that I need more sleep, but I end up staying awake because of thing to play or watch. It's totally my fault now, but I guess I am paying the price.
Skin is good, or relatively good. Right now, it feels dry and reddish. I just noticed in the changing room at Isetan, that I do have some type of rash on my face. These spots are reddish and they appear in my sinus region. I am not even sure which product that causes the rash. The BB creams? mask? sleeping mask? lotion? serum? facial wash? BHA? I am not sure which product I should stop using, or is it just because of dry skin that makes my skin feels hot and prickly. Its still better than early last year, where I broke out in acne and left scars all over my face.
Still car less, but its not a major issue until I need to go out and all the cars are taken or all the cars are blocking my car. Not sure if lucky, since the latter happens more often. I would love to have a new car but then I barely drive. The odometer barely reaches 3000km in 6 months! Thank god for public transportation.
Weight loss or better weight management is still a battle, I am back to using relaxers on my hair and loving how it turns out smooth but after 2 months and 1 haircut, it looks worse than before. Its a money trap that I look forward to, every few months.
See you all, in a few months?
Monday, May 20, 2013
I automatically fall asleep at 5.50pm.
No joke, I will start to feel drowsy my 5.30pm and by 6.00pm, I will need a 15 minute nap so that I can go home. Yes a nap before going home. Its kinda like being in a preschool. At first I pin point it to just being tired, after all I communicate with people all day, and it does drain you. It feels like I should definitely get that Starbucks spill free mug or get something cheaper than that and drink coffee all day long because I feel like I loose that alertness when working.
Its a paradox actually. I get sleepy when there is no visitors, so I approached them and communicate with them warmly and it does wake me up. However after that I get tired because I had to communicate with them, so I have to drink coffee to wake myself up again. A paradox I tell you!
However it just does not stop with coffee, sometimes I need something else other than coffee. That is where these Energy drinks come to the rescue. My favourite drink is Red Bull Less Sugar but not Sting Energy drink has become a an option, mainly because of the strawberry flavour option. Yes it does work, I become chirpy and more alerted each moment.
Damn, this is definitely an expensive habit, but probably cheaper that cigarettes, or perhaps I should try them too. Nah.. I rather drink my money than smoke it.
Right now I need to take more selfies....
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
But then my friends have done it and they succeed at it. I mean to loose weight its 80% diet and 20% exercise.
Then it becomes a vicious cycle of wanting to look good naked or as good as the underwear models or a fully clothes one, I don't care either way but really to just to be able to sit down with out my belly pressing on my belt.
Its a constant battle of my belly and trousers. I need to get something is the "correct" size so that it fits around my belly nicely, but since my hips is smaller, my pants will sag like crazy, it will sag so much, there is a town in the USA where I would be thrown to jail for sagging my trousers excessively. When I sit down on a chair, my belly protrude out and no pant size can contain it. Hence I sit rather upright and straight or really sloppy just because my belly needs a nice empty space, hence cinema and exam halls are no problem since I can slouch or sit up straight, its those in between sitting potion such as meeting.
Don't bother giving health and diet tips because I will probably either know but I have already ignored it. Damn you will power, damn my self, There was a time where I was so heart broken that I almost was able to buy a trousers at Zara, and that was a big deal to me. I was beginning to become an L instead of an XL. L is so important because all the nice well made clothes (pfft I just want the brand really) goes only up to L.
Anyhow, its just a rant, I am in fact rounder than ever, in fact, the most round I have ever been (I intentionally made that incorrect sentences using fake words),
Why should I stop trying, who knows what I can do right, if I put my mind to it.
Monday, May 13, 2013
So it's midnight, and we are supposed to be asleep right. I can't but only because I took a 4 hour nap during the day and damp, that felt really good. It's a luxury that some take for granted or its something that some people normally do.
For me nap times are usual price reserved at precisely 6 pm during workdays. While some people it's the time to go home, gym or class for me it's the time I can get so drowsy. No amount of coffee can keep me up.
Other forms of luxury that I found is a source or luxury is gourmet coffee, these are the Starbucks, Coffee Bean, San Francisco etc. I mean Rm 7 for a cup of black coffee, that is just insane but dammit it just hits the spot nicely and if you lepak at one of its cafe, at least the comfy atmosphere and wife makes up for the price.
I think driving is a former of luxury, I don't how a car but I drive whatever there is available to me in the porch. You get to be in a concoon where the air is cool and your fave music is blasting on the radio. However it's only good on clear roads, when there is congestion it's feels daunting and it's very tiring.
On hot days like this, it's thankfully that my room is equip with an air conditioner. If I had a house I would forgot the closest and get an AC. It's does cost a lot to run it, but I keep it green by just setting the temp to a nice 25 C°.
I have no idea what am I ranting but I guess it has to be related to a book I am currently reading titled "Shopping; why we love it and how retailers can create the Ultimate customer experience". I like it because it gives us the breakdown of what shopping is and how we become suckers to retailers and what they do to attract us.
Anyhow, it's just a small part of my huge book collections, it's nice and it's a reason to get bookshelf my room or throw away all the old notes that I plan to never read again.
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Thursday, April 11, 2013
I could wrote more often but I tend to hit the brakes more often. Bad in blogging or online open diary but applicable in real life. It's more easy than enough to blurt or type every thing out but this is the adult working world, so you gotta have a lot of brakes and are able to have a poker face that could win you millions.
It's also applicable to not blurt out everything at first meet or give out everything to someone new. It's good to leave just a bit of mystery. That is something I would definitely have to work on.
It's good to keep up the chase, but at the same time keep ourselves grounded to reality, but life is boring to not to be able to dream.
Da fuq did I write.....