So tired and yet so happy

So damn tired, and I have so many things to do. My insanely clean room is getting messy again and it sucks :(. I have a cold developing and it sucks even more. I am taking a cold medicine now and I think I am losing it a bit. Zzzz... Btw this the recipe for my Pavlova...

Ritual

Everyone of us has a particular ritual they do each night.

My ideal ritual is taking my shower which includes brushing my teeth, shampooing my hair, soaping my body and washing my face with a cleanser before Maghrib. Than clean feeling one gets after a shower is very... well... clean.

Then have dinner, then just watch TV and then go to bed at 11pm.

Yeah, that is pretty much ideal for me

Usually it ends up, me on the laptop (as if I don't spend on it enough in the lab) till Maghrib, then pray, then take a shower, fight with my sister on what channel to watch (the bitch refuse to give control of the TV, which is getting ridiculous as we get older), then have an inner conflict whether to go to gym or not and then ate something salty or savoury for a snack. All the while, still haven't bath.

I might decide to surf the net some more, play video games, or go out to Tesco. I will or might go to the gym or stay up watching something on YouTube..

Don't forget, I must at least open the Thesis folder or at least read something academic at night.

Ergh.. it feels hectic even thought there is not much to do.

Crazy..... or just plain poor time management

Minute

Schools back again, that means traffic jam also, however, I leave home before the traffic jam starts and leave the lab after the traffic jam ends... hmmmm

I am trying to keep Syawal weight gain, from... well gaining.

Running out of money.. again!.. Argh..

Will actually be selling the Mercedes now. no I mean seriously. Since he agreed to the 13k price tag.

Thesis, thesis. freak muthfuka thesis...

ANTM new season is great!

Ford Fiesta is really nice, but I really want the Kia Soul..

Farmville and Frontier is left alone, yet again...

Finally felt secure and confident on getting a Neo, but who knows, he might change his mind yet again, besides, still haven't spoken to him at all.

Sent the Samsung camera for its last trip to the repair centre. Its last chance, before its kept in the junk drawer.

I think I need the junk drawer for space to put my clothes in....

Accidents Happens

Accidents increased tremendously during any public holiday's in Malaysia, but peaked during Chinese New Year and Hari Raya because the public holiday is longer and more people are on the road.

However the picture above was taken at the gold course in UPM during the fasting month. Its quite baffling how the Mercedes got into this predicament. The driver was driving on grass, not on the paved road, not even on the paved golf cart road. To the left of the car is actually the paved road. I just don't understand how could they missed it? A thief joy riding? A drunken golfer? Who knows....

Rasa Lah Kuih Kuih Ku

I can't weive ketupat, I can't stir dodol, I can't make rendang, I can't roast lemang but I can make raya biscuits. Although chocolate chip almond is a modern cookie, I can still make semperit and pineapple tart. I am learning to make kuih Siput and kuih Gunting though. So, the Malay preparation of Hari Raya, is not lost in me. Beside, I think 80% of the Raya biscuits that are sold on the market, are repulsive. Gimme homemade biscuits, slightly disfigured, anytime over those perfect pretty Raya biscuits.

Dekat raya

Hmm its nearing raya, and fasting month is almost ending. The last 3 years of fasting, including this year, has been different. I lost weight, instead of gaining weight. Its like the best thing in the world. Everything fits better, and comes in my size. Too bad, within one week, everything was gained back O_o.. Ah oh well..... I still need a way to maintain what I had. Now, its time to tailor clothes :D

A conversation during Sahur

Me: Ma, I think you may have slip disc

Ma: me too

Me: bla bla bla friend, bla bla, Dr Ngah, Dr Malina, bla bla

Ma: Yup, it does hurt

Sisters: *nods

Me: Bla bla bla, physiotherapy, bla bla, friend,

Ma: Really, bla bla, I should

Me: You should, bla bla bla friend, bla bla, bowling, bla bla

Sisters: *nods

Ma: Yes, bla bla, KPJ Hospital, bla bla, near, bla bla

Me: Yes, bla bla, you should go, bla bla

Ma: Yup bla bla

Me: Bah, you have slip disc too before right?

Babah: What? I can't understand you, please speak properly. I don't understand a word you said. Can't you speak normally?

Me: *stayed quiet

Ma: *took multivitamin

Sister 1: *near the kitchen sink, Huh? I could understand Abang's conversation perfectly, how come Babah did not?

Sister 2: *shrugs.



*Moral of the story?

My family has our own secret language that my dad does not understand or I have a language that only my family members and friends could understand and my dad does not. Now you know, why I never really talked to my dad about anything. When he tries to decode what I say, it will end up frustrating him and brings the conversation to an end.

Keeping up with the Joneses

"Keeping up with the Joneses" is a catchphrase in many parts of the English-speaking world referring to the comparison to one's neighbour as a benchmark for social caste or the accumulation of material goods. To fail to "keep up with the Joneses" is perceived as demonstrating socio-economic or cultural inferiority. Taken from Wiki

I hear this catchphrase a lot, but never seem to know where it came, till now. Don't we all, envy other people's wealth and material things. It takes a person with a huge confidence to look at the "Joneses", smile, and walk away with out the need to be like them or over take them.

I would know, right now, is a phase where everything is not going right. Everybody has that phase and sooner or later, one does get out of it. One just need to remain focus and follow the path they have set to themselves.

Sleep

One of the effect of having to wake up early is, the time when my family wakes me up for sahur is always during the peak of my dream sequence. Almost everyday during fasting, this disturbance happens. Somehow though, I think my body is almost used,to be up at 5.20am everyday. I think I already woken up a few minutes earlier but I decided to sleep. Bad decision, for me, the dream sequence will start again, and even more intense if I decided to fall asleep again. Which is the leading cause of me, being late to lab, excluding running family errands. To sleep or not to sleep is not the question, but is whether to sleep again or not.

Light Up

Now these candles have found better use, other than blackouts. It seems that the flickering flames, is very soothing to my eyes. It really does makes thing appear just a bit better

Summary

Negletted blog due tue Grand Theft Auto 4 on Xbox 360

Watched Knight and Day, liked it

The doctor asked if my face was swollen? ouch, to chubby for the face or that Fair and Lovely does make one look tired

A staff in one of the lab, thought I was Chinese? Ni Hao? Hao..........

Non Oily Sunblock are bloody expensive and so hard to find ones that has not expired..

Bought a new pair of 1 year color contact lenses

Hated my advisor, will not further study with them..

Need to grow up, just because they are not there, it does not mean they don't care..

Stopped asking, what kind of relationship we have, and instead enjoyed time with them

Received a hamper from 7-Eleven for being bitching about their services.

Wondered if I would cry if my dad passed away too?

Suddenly have the urge to surf for phones

Made a passport

Going on a plane after 13 years not being on one

That is the things I wanted to write, but failed.. shame on me for not updating, there people who are actually interested in some of things I write.

Saturday Night Drift @ MAPES

There is place that is near my faculty that held a drift race on Saturday nights on its parking lot. I never there was such thing until now. It cost RM 5 per person to watch the drift race on parking lot. This was my first time watching a drift race. If you are car lover and love races, prepare to watch Nissan Silvia, 1980 Nissan Cerfiro, Nissan Skyline, Toyota AE86, Toyota KE70/E70 and other cars drift and slides their way skillfully.

Other than drifting, audiophile likes to show off their custom ICE system with the music blasted loud.

Tonight was a bit special, since there were professional drift racers involve with the amateur drifter. It was a sight to behold, if you love cars. This event is located at the "Pintu 2" (Second Gate) of MARDI. Other than drift events, there are a carboot sale in the parking lot and a go-cart track where you can race with your friends for RM 25 for 10 minutes.

Secret Cake

This is my secret cake. This cake has so many secrets, that I like to call it a secret cake. My mother absolutely loves this cake. She would finish the whole tin, if I don't stop her. This cake is very moist, but its not heavy. It does not have that yolk smell that some people complain, when they have cake. Its quite cheap and simple to make. Its a secret, why its so secretive, should I reveal it? This is one of my many desserts that people were lucky enough to have. Its either, you invite me to a food related event, or somehow you got sick and have to stay at home or at the hospital. I will bring you something home made, fresh from the oven, ALWAYS, I feel naked if I don't bring anything. So may I have the invites :D

What a Wonderful Day

Woke up earlier than expected,
End up rolling in bed for a few hours..

Went to Puchong to meet a prospective buyer for our car,
However the car bonnet failed to open and the aircond suddenly went warm..

Went to a friend's house and went out to lunch
Had a over priced lunch (ice lime tea, rice, soy sauce beef, ulam, and sambal belacan = RM 12.50)

Hang out till dinner and went to IT City to see the lights..
There were so many people looking at Christmas and Chinese New Year like lighting's..

Went back home late,
Had to change the punctured Myvi tyre before the Naza gets back

Wants to sleep
but there is sambal hijau with beef in the kitchen, my dad and brother playing the guitar and singing in the living room next to my room and my mother and sister are looking at the fabric my else sister bought from Vietnam.. all the activity was done after 12am...


What a great way to start the week......

Ignorance

Sometimes its just better to be ignorant and have a one track mind. Its better to pretend nothing happens and that everything is black or white without any grey areas. Objectives are achieved faster and time is not wasted. Time is not wasted thinking the what if's or maybe's. Thoughts are focus to yourself without having to wonder what the other is thinking. Moving on would be much easier and less frustrated. Life goes on smoothly

My Life Sucks But Blogs Don't :)

Yeah, my life currently sucks, and I would nominate my self with the other people who feels that their life sucks too. We blog about our sucky lives and expect people to read it how sucks life feels. However during these sucky times, we bitch blog about our lives, we find that there are many blogs out their that cheer us up during our sucky time and makes everything all rights. These are new blogs that I am adding to my list that has not been updated since forever. Many of the blog links are not even active anymore. These are the blogs that I read now, they have something positive in life that I could read and that makes me positive. Or it just makes OMG WTF LOL ROTF LMAO

:D

*it helps some of them do read my blog

**i finally know what kind of blog i produce (personal blog)

1. http://www.klubbkidd.com/
2. http://jfook.blogspot.com/
3. http://www.proudduck.com/
4. http://www.misterfatty.com/
5. http://www.kenwooi.com/
6. http://insaneonion.blogspot.com/
7. http://ohmywtf-ohmywtf.blogspot.com/
8. http://vida-rahsiahati.blogspot.com/
9. http://www.japansugoi.com/wordpress/
10. http://www.akiraceo.com/
11. http://liza365.blogspot.com/
12. http://straighteyeforthestraightguy.blogspot.com/

When Things Gone From Bad to Awfully Worse

I am tired, I wanted to write so many things that happened instead I just try to keep it simple. This is a scene if my father was not in the picture.

Sister: eh my car got into accident
me: how? where? who?
sister: a man driving a Kelisa hit me from behind, near BP velodrom
me: so how? is he paying or going to report to police?
sister: i asked to pay me, he said he wants to pay only 150
me: okay lah, gi report police then
sister: come lah, accompany me
me: sure okay, i want mcD
sister: ye lah

then drive to the police report, lodge a report, give insurance details, take picture of the car, write a report, then have mcD drive through. a few days later insurance come, tgk kereta, then claim.


however.. my father was in the car when she called me, and he overheard what happened, and he willingly without anyone forcing him, to go to the scene of the crime to "save" my sister, and hell breaks loose. The situation became so long, that I don't think I could put a dialogue in. Here is a summary of what happens

Father comes, inspects the car, demands money to repair, Kelisa guy (KG) said he has no money, wants to report, father argues and argue with KG, i kept quiet and avoid eye contact with KG, father gets furious, KG looked pissed, father yells at us to take KG details, KG is so pissed off that he just wants to talk at the police station, we tried to follow KG, but father told us to go home right away. Father kept yelling and screaming in the car and almost hit my mother. Sister was yelling and screaming in the car, but I was driving. Father kept yelling and screaming more since the TnG card was in my possession since I went and reload it since it was low on credit. Sister cooled down after I kept quite and calm, while offering her a cool can of Coke Light. I had to find out where the police station, where they will report the accident. I Google Map, I called and called again till I ran out of credit. KG did not report the accident yet, probably went home to send his child that was in the car during time of accident. Now at 12pm the next day, I have to meet my sister at KLCC to go to make a police report during lunch at Tun HS Lee road.

So yes, this gone from bad to awfully worse, thanks to participation of my father. Btw I haven't written down, things that happened BEFORE this accident. He freak out because his coffee came late and that he got mad that I won't go to the counter and DEMAND a cup of coffee now, instead I ordered and waited for my turn.

Rejects

Gosh.. I did not have a good night sleep or did I? I felt like I did not get a good night’s sleep. I keep tossing and turning in my bed all night long. I was alert with all the sounds in the dark. The AC, the random illegal racers or horny cats accompanied me through the night. I had a dream, it was definitely a dream, and not a nightmare but I was disappointed, very disappointed. Imagine being stood up, in your dreams, and I actually waited all night long in the dream. How foolish am I, but I am a fool, a damned fool for believing in such frivolous things. The AC shuts down, the sun rises up and a new day starts. Could it be a better week?

Steam

I am losing my steam. Somehow the fire is gone man.. where is it. Argh.... I hate it when it happends. Its something that we just don't want to do but it happens. Gosh, I am definetly not handling things maturely. Damnit I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. Life is bright, I just have to remember that. You too..

*lantak lah nak emo.. tapi aku pastikan emo ini adalah sependek mungkin.. korang mesti menyampah tgk kan :D..ni emo blog.. dan aku mengeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeemo kan diri

Deep Heating Rub

Hoho.. that Gatsby event lingered around longer that I anticipated. My back is killing me! My finger are still sore, my friends ankle were still swollen. I guess we were the few fools who were willing to climb the mountain and ride the bull. How irony the cream that I used to relieve muscle pain is from Mentholatum, the same company who made Gatsby. LOL.. I full time user now...