Its payday and its time for everyone to enjoy their fruits of labor for the past month that they are working. Its also time to pay bills and settle your mortgages. Perhaps its time to pay back a friend or family that you have borrowed or just settle old debt. What ever it is, that proverbial sack of gold is getting empty and there is nothing you could do about it.
Alas, most of the time, we should not worry because payday will come again and the cycle starts over. For the few unfortunate people, paycheck does not come and they are forced to live on whatever nuts they squirled away. Well I play to squirl up as much as I can each month away in a separate account. My eyes gleams with joy seeing all that money piled up. Seeing 4 digits in your bank account is very satisfying.
Due to this however, I am spending as I was still a volunteer, but with a major difference. I could now save, pay my study loan and pay back the money I borrowed to buy my Blackberry, which soon will be as "parental" money that I give to my parents.
Downside of this squirled up life is that buying a car and renting a place of my own seems like an impossible dream until I have sufficient enough money. Lately though, I feel like its something I must do now. Everything is just getting stressful in my personal and I can just leave it at that. I guess people feel like its cool to report back to everyone whatever I rant regardless of what platform I have shared. However, I am asking for trouble for actually accepting them as friends, even though I felt like I added them only so I can share my thoughts and feeling with them. I can only say congratulation to them, this is the last straw before I put them in the restricted list. It is a cool list, since they can only see a fraction of what I do and most importantly what I say.
Some say I get a bit over dramatic over such "silly little things", but when these "silly little things" get add up over time, it becomes a "major big thing". Of course, most of the time people still shoved it back to me and say "its just a silly little thing".
I have a friend who is sad most of the time and people thought it was from studying too much time, but little do people know studying was actually a relaxing for my friend to do, same like me, I like my job, sure there are stressful things here and there but its all good. Its those "silly little things" outside of the Twin Towers building that just drives me off the wall.
"Silly little things" they say. Well its not silly to me, and I do not appreciated you undermining me that way.
This is just recollection of the moments I face in life, you may think you know me when you are reading this, but this blog is only a fragment of the many personalities that can manifest in me
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Guilt?
Guilt is the feeling when I sleep with the air conditioning on for two nights in a row.
When something irritates me as hell at home, maybe misplaced items, maybe items are missing, maybe its the comments, I feel no guilt.
Leaving dirty dishes? No guilt
Leaving without saying goodbye? No guilt
Not socializing or coming out of my room? No guilt..
Pitiful right?
Its very pitiful and sad indeed to be doing things like that. However if you look at it closely, it resembles passive aggressiveness. I seriously doubt anyone actually notices that. Heck no one notices me when I am sick but they do notice me when I am thinking alone or daydreaming while walking.
Nonsense right, its as nonsense as forgetting my jacket at the dry cleaners, yet again since I just saw my resit as I am typing this blog on this rather warm laptop which is struggling to play World of Warcraft for me....
When something irritates me as hell at home, maybe misplaced items, maybe items are missing, maybe its the comments, I feel no guilt.
Leaving dirty dishes? No guilt
Leaving without saying goodbye? No guilt
Not socializing or coming out of my room? No guilt..
Pitiful right?
Its very pitiful and sad indeed to be doing things like that. However if you look at it closely, it resembles passive aggressiveness. I seriously doubt anyone actually notices that. Heck no one notices me when I am sick but they do notice me when I am thinking alone or daydreaming while walking.
Nonsense right, its as nonsense as forgetting my jacket at the dry cleaners, yet again since I just saw my resit as I am typing this blog on this rather warm laptop which is struggling to play World of Warcraft for me....
Monday, May 14, 2012
The "n" factor
The letter n on my blackberry has gotten quite sticky. It means its just not as responsive as my other keys on my blackberry. I bought my blackberry earlier this year partly due to jealousy of other people's high end smart phone and that I wanted a blackberry again even though I hardly used its BBM service other than its email.
From a practical point of view my mid ranged android does almost everything except it lacks the internal memory my bb has. As I type this on my blackberry each "n" its a constant "push" while the other letters feels like a part of me.
Easiest way to solve this is just to send it back to the place I bought it and get it repaired. Somehow I am afraid that if I did send it in, it will never come back to me the way it was before. There is also the fact that my blackberry subscription has just been renewed so I feel like if its send in for repairs it could be days or weeks before I get it back.
What is it with me and my attachment to non living thing? Its not like I am not prepared to return it, I already charged my backup phone and even backed up my blackberry to my computer so that I won't worry if all my data was replaced. Hmmm..... Most of the cases of problematic blackberry that was on facebook has been solved, now why won't I send mine in? There is also the possiblity that they won't understand that my "n" key is not responsive enough to my touch but then why should I wait till my warranty expires just to get it fixed?. Decisions, decisions...
Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless device via Vodafone-Celcom Mobile.
From a practical point of view my mid ranged android does almost everything except it lacks the internal memory my bb has. As I type this on my blackberry each "n" its a constant "push" while the other letters feels like a part of me.
Easiest way to solve this is just to send it back to the place I bought it and get it repaired. Somehow I am afraid that if I did send it in, it will never come back to me the way it was before. There is also the fact that my blackberry subscription has just been renewed so I feel like if its send in for repairs it could be days or weeks before I get it back.
What is it with me and my attachment to non living thing? Its not like I am not prepared to return it, I already charged my backup phone and even backed up my blackberry to my computer so that I won't worry if all my data was replaced. Hmmm..... Most of the cases of problematic blackberry that was on facebook has been solved, now why won't I send mine in? There is also the possiblity that they won't understand that my "n" key is not responsive enough to my touch but then why should I wait till my warranty expires just to get it fixed?. Decisions, decisions...
Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless device via Vodafone-Celcom Mobile.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Writing......
At work, we had a 1 day course with a theater actor. It was said that he could give us tips on how to do science shows because he is one of the few theater actors that actually get request from science school and centres. We had a work shop on script writing and he told us that in order to become better writers we must write. It sounded reasonable enough and its one of the tips out there to improve writing.
However, he emphasise on writing with a pencil and paper. He said "WE MUST". I asked if we could you a computer, he said "NO" and claims that it does not have the same effect as holding a pencil and paper.
Well I almost could not resist asking about using pens and glass or a tablet with a stylist to write, but might as well leave him leaving my company being happy. I still think its absurd. Just because technology has surpassed normal pencil and paper, while some people has learned to type as efficiently or even quicker that writing such as my self, it does not mean it does not have a link through our brain.
I personally think, its an old fashion thing, the man was 57 years old or something, so its kinda understandable. Its as logic driving a car without power steering, or doing your laundry by hand and even cooking using firewood compared to using modern technology.
Well, what ever it is, you must write, and you must write everyday, and its best if you write the moment you wake up. Well that latter might be a problem, however typing in using my smartphones won't be so hard.
Our mundanes days are intriguing to other people, but our whines and complaints are not.. So write, or type ;)
However, he emphasise on writing with a pencil and paper. He said "WE MUST". I asked if we could you a computer, he said "NO" and claims that it does not have the same effect as holding a pencil and paper.
Well I almost could not resist asking about using pens and glass or a tablet with a stylist to write, but might as well leave him leaving my company being happy. I still think its absurd. Just because technology has surpassed normal pencil and paper, while some people has learned to type as efficiently or even quicker that writing such as my self, it does not mean it does not have a link through our brain.
I personally think, its an old fashion thing, the man was 57 years old or something, so its kinda understandable. Its as logic driving a car without power steering, or doing your laundry by hand and even cooking using firewood compared to using modern technology.
Well, what ever it is, you must write, and you must write everyday, and its best if you write the moment you wake up. Well that latter might be a problem, however typing in using my smartphones won't be so hard.
Our mundanes days are intriguing to other people, but our whines and complaints are not.. So write, or type ;)
too long didn't read
this is a blog meet with android using the microphone feature. bush was great everything that is written on here is gibberish. position as you can see nothing makes sense because the voice recognition softwares truly not
working that well. best siri for iphone 4 s looks better in the financing laws. well I'm just too lazy to type normally keep leveling normal person. so I decided to publish this love using this voice recognition software. do you have a standard to british.
some confusing shit this is it
working that well. best siri for iphone 4 s looks better in the financing laws. well I'm just too lazy to type normally keep leveling normal person. so I decided to publish this love using this voice recognition software. do you have a standard to british.
some confusing shit this is it
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