Photogenic Shadow

I just had a haircut, and as usual, came whoring with my Blackberry 8310. I got my usual hair cut and my usual barber and took a relatively usual after picture. Somehow though I looked a bit different here. My eye brows, they look like they are connected in a huge curve that starts at the corner of my own eye. My friend said, what did I do to my eye brow. I told him, this was the exact same brow he saw me last week. The shadow and light must have created that weird line that made my eye brow endless. The sharp shape of the eye brow comes from my mother. We have the same eye brows, thick and points quite sharply. So sharp, if we don't smile, it as seemed we are angry.

This is the face that scares people off. Its my "I am not thinking of anything face". The corner of my lips drop down, my eyes misshapen, my cheeks drop and that sharp eye brow completes the mean and unfriendly look naturally.

This is when I feel a bit crazy. I have to open my eyes, raised my eye brows a litter, smile just a little bit to pull my cheeks up. I feel uncomfortable and crazy, but it ends up being a better face. This is the reason I hate taking photos when someone tells me to pose. I feel weird, that is why I love all my candid pictures. I look normal, refreshed and friendly. I guess that is why it turns people away when I feel comfortable. Comfortable = ugly uncomfortable angry bored face. Crazy uncomfortable = friendly, presentable comfortable face. So weird eh? some people look great no matter how they they adjust their face, I guess that is why some people are photogenic..

Crazy / Hair

WARNING NARCISSISTIC POST

I decided to go back to my digital album and see myself through out the year. Gosh.. I really looked awful to the point it was funny now. LOL. I was totally obsessed with my hair. I dyed, bleached and chemically relaxed it so many times to a point where my hair was so damaged, it was breaking of bit by bit like spaghetti. These are just some of the faces of me in the past.

I straighten my hair a lot during my diploma years, sadly during those days I did not have a camera to take a picture of every step and style. However this was the only picture I have of my hair actually straight. This was after straighten, bleached, colored and the colored again. This was taken like gosh.. 7 years ago maybe?

This picture was taken maybe like 2 years ago. I still wear those thick coke bottle specs and I keep my hair poofy and curly. You can see the leftover dye of my last color.

I keep my hair very short now, but before if I don't cut it it becomes this frizzy curly mess. ( It helps I was just out of bed)

Another residual dye left from the last color. My hair was long enough that you can see its curls and waves.

This was the time I dyed my hair red!. It was actually more brown to red but the processing time was to extreme at the salon and it turned out more red than brown.

I was bored during this picture and decided to iron my hair. It failed miserably.

Do you like my not so straight top look?

This was the closest thing I got to my normal cut today..

This was the hair that was dyed red a few days ago. My prof asked how and where I did it. I lied and said it cost me RM30 to do it at home, when it cost me almost RM 100 to get it done.

The red hair was very stubborn. It lingered for a very long time since I refuse to go bald.

So many hair style, so many events and emotions happened during those time, I wonder should I go full circle and go back to being hair crazy like I did in my diploma years...

What Do You Think?

What do you think happened here

• Came whoring as usual
• I lost one of my contact lenses
• I was trying on Freshlook ColorBlends Honey.
• I was feeling Twilight vampirish by getting the similar shade of their eyes.
• I decided to get attention by just wearing one colored lens and one clear lens
  

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Nope, I actually was putting on the Freshlook Colorblends Honey, when my older sister was running like the white rabbit in Alice in Wonderland, exclaiming that she is late and wanted me to move my car. With one clear, colored iris and another blurred black iris I had to move the car before she totally looses it.

Bunga - Bunga Cinta

No this is not the entry about a song from Misha Omar. Just an entry from my parent's garden. Both are avid gardeners, but it was my mother who takes care most of the work. Right now, she is working on planting new grass patches for our lawn. Most of it were destroyed or flooded by our renovations. Our last renovation was the expansion of our car porch to fit in 5 cars and her orchid stand. I don't know what is the correct word for it, but its a place where she hangs her orchids. Its not a green house since it is open air and had no glass walls. She used to just hang her orchids under our Rambutan tree, but now she has a proper place to do so. I think planting a lot of flowers and putting it in your lawn and even outside the fence of your house is very much a Melaka trait. Since my mother lives on the borders of Melaka and Negeri Sembilan. My mother loves her orchids as she would tend and care for it everyday. We bought this one type of orchid at MAHA that smelled heavenly. We did not bought the grown one with the flower but we bought the baby one's that have not budded yet. I can't wait for it to bloom, since my room is nearest to the garden. Gone are the days where I had to mow the lawn every 2 weeks, the lawn is quite small now, and a Nepalese worker would ring our bell and cut the grass for us every 3 weeks. My parents yard is quite nice, so nice that we got thieves stealing coconuts from our coconut tree and chivet cat is hiding in our roof and eating our Papaya's. I've seen many strange animals in my neighborhood that were roaming free which includes a horse, a rabbit and a very large lizard. However my home is the nest for that chivet cat. Hmm we need to find it and let it go since its defecating all over the air conditioning compressor.

Aidil Fitri Abroad

I got bored of what to blog and I haven't taken any pictures lately since my camera is at the shop. I wanted to scan pictures of my past to share, unique ones that is. I think this is pretty unique to share. This was a Aidil Fitri picture of my family. Notice anything different, other than that I was younger, but still taller than the rest of my siblings :p. We were all wearing jackets and the trees had no leaves. Yup it was during Autumn. If I am not mistaken either 96 or 97 since that was the time I got my growth spurt. This was taken when we were in Norman, Oklahoma, US. My dad was studying there at the time and took us along. It was quite cold, hence the jacket. We celebrated Aidil Fitri in the Autumn and winter. So we had really short fasting days. I remember we had a white Aidil Fitri but not a white Christmas. Imagine playing snow fight in baju kurung and baju melayu. It was those memories that I will forever cherish. My mother had another child when we were there, but he died shortly after birth. We burried him there. I wonder if I could go back and visit his grave again. The sole boy in the family whose name does not start with Hairul (my brother and I share the same first name). His name Muhammad Johan.

Cry Me A River

I try so hard, but fall so far in the end it does not even matter. Can't live, can't live without you. Why isn't there some one try to find me. Here I am once again, I am falling into pieces. Its too late to apologize. How do I, get through this night with you. My heart will go on. It too little too late. I am tired of crying all night long till my eyes are swollen and read. You both made this happened. Both of you...........

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Aspirin and Shrimp

Hahaha, no lah, it will be crazy for me to cry for someone till my eyes get swollen like that. That is my friends, is an allergic reaction. There were two things that I ate today that were allergic prone. First it was the fried shrimp that I had for lunch. Second, I took two tablets of aspirin to relieve my headache. The result was, headache was gone, but my eyes were swollen. The picture of myself in the green shirt was at the onset of the symptom, while the picture of myself in a red shirt was the outcome after 1 hour. The swelling got worst, I can still see even though the swollen have made my eyes looked very squint. A jab of injection at the doctor and some more anti histamine should reduce the swelling. However, this resulted in me being very lethargic. I wanted to do some work, but I can't drive to UPM for the fear of being slotted under the lorry. I have a presentation on Tuesday, thank god I written my skeleton on the whiteboard. I was supposed to erased it, because I thought I would return tonight. I am struggling just to keep awake now. Tomorrow I have Ps2 marathon with a dear friend. I must finish my slides tomorrow..

Monday to Wendnesday

Vivi needs its second service.

Regrets sending it today, waited 4 hours to get it serviced.

Thank God for free Wifi.

As like any people who lost weight during fasting, you gain it all back the first week of Raya.

Hit the gym again.. need to burn 700 kcalories a day and weight train 3 times a week.

Afraid exercise will cause food binging, but need protein to repair the sore (still sore) muscles. Beef burger on chapati, YUM!!

Josh invited to join him and Danial Ma at Metropoint Starbucks. First time meeting Danial in person. A jovial guy and friendly guy to meet :D. First time reading Wahaza blog. Thank you to Josh for the Raspberry Blackcurrant Frapachino :D

Dania's Ibook and Iphone 3g

Iphone 3g, so cool, so light, and who is that making a face in that phone ;)

Later that night, went to Old Town Kopitiam at Sg Chua. Met Abg Bear and Shah after a few months of not meeting with them. Met Wahaza for the first time. Cool guy, lots of knowledge in IT and Iphones.

Stories of Iphones, blogs, handphones and gossip were thrown around the table. Many thanks to Abg Bear and Shah for the chicken Por Fun and Ice lemon tea. It was short, nice and pleasurable.

New clothes, New hair, New Month

Its time to shop for raya clothes. I still be using last year Baju Melayu. So I need to buy just jalan2 clothes. My sister complain I only buy cheap clothes. Cheap as in under RM 50. She saids it just looks bad :( Hey I don't have that much cash in hand to get stylish stuff so I get anything that is comfy and on sale. So my family decided to pay for it, for something expensive and good quality and cut they say. Nautica had a sale off, so we decided to get some. I found out I know could get smaller size clothes, which fits my body prefectly.
This is great news, no longer I need to asked if this comes in a larger size :D.

I could fit into most XL now instead of XXL, even some L sizes such as this shirt, fits me perfectly. Lucky for my broad shoulders, my stomach does not protrude out as much. But the I have been losing some weight lately :). I can't wait to loose more and get more clothes :D

New hair cut is also in check for raya. I decided to go really really short without going bald or going skin head.

Also I ask the mamak to shave off all the so called facial hair I have and just leave my trademark side burn to my ear length. New hair, new clothes, and new life perhaps after this..

Buka Puasa at Alamanda

Yesterday, Amad and I had our berbuka puasa at Alamanda. He never tried this place before.

Manhantan Fish Market. I ate here (but not in Alamanda) a few times before and I like it.

They had a special buka puasa promotion, that we both like it. A set, with rose soya bean, kurma, starter and dessert. Yum!

We sat outside because Amad smokes. (Ms Jay would scream at Amad, "I need neck".. I am stenching my neck to show it.. it shows the jaw line and makes you less chubbier in the face :p, oh wait I did loose some :p.. don't matter if people can't see it, my pants, scale and mirror can :D)

This the lovely starter clams or whatever you called in a cheese sauce.. YUM!!! it goes well with bread.

We had the set where there is butter and herb rice, fries, flame prawns and deep fried (fish, squid and oyster).

For dessert we had tiramisu. YUM!! so good.

I just had to have ice cream after that, Baskin Robbin that is, in a chocolate waffle covered cup :D. There was two scoops of ice cream, one was Very Berry Strawberry and the other one was Mint Chocolate Chip.

So good, that you just have to finished off the whole cone :D

Budlee looses his mind.. again

Why is my face is powdery and dry

Gaaa!!! Its drying up..

I'm cracking, cracking, owh what a world what a world what a cruel world

*one must suffer for flawless skin. Pimples sprouted up here and there so its time to take evasive action. One must suffer for vanity :D.. BTW I was bored while doing this, it does not hurt one bit, but it made my skin less oily the next morning.

Fetching..

I went to the airport with my mother to fetch my dad. He just got back from Sudan and he will be celebrating Raya with us this year.

We had to wait outside of the terminal because his flight was delayed and the nasty police officer won't let us wait in the terminal because some fat ugly Camry 2.4 driving kiasu chinese whore complained. BITCH!!!! I langgar your kereta nanti biar cabut bumper mahal ko!!! Thank god it was fasting. Should taken her picture and post it at a adult sex friend website. Anyways it was tiring really to wait so I just sat in the Naza and listen to reruns of JJ and Rudy gotcha calls. I love the part when this gedik girl caught cheating on her boyfriend, live on the air. It was hilarious how shameless she was flirting with this commercial announcer with the deep sexy voice. She was Malay and her boyfriend was Malay. Her boyfriend was so pissed off when she gedik2 with the announcer and wanted to go out with the announcer. It was priceless to catch your cheating partner like this.

I been looking back at past pictures of myself. I lost about 6 kg since my trip to Terengganu with my mistaken golden mahogany dark blonde hair ( it was red hair basically). My face was so full back then compared to now. My pants are getting baggier by the moment. I am on a roll and happy with the result of my diet, exercise, depressed and getting sick plan. However all of it might change and I might gain back all the weight and more... because of him......

Its him!!!! He will be the downfall of my weight loss!! My FATHER on a shopping spree at the Bazaar Ramadan.!!!!! Help!!! just now he bought like 4 different kinds of drinks, and 5 types of kuih. I opted for laksa to lessen the damaged. I was like oh crap, mcm mana nih, nanti tak mkn he will get mad because we would not finish food on the table. *Hyperventalating... Ok2 I gotta play it cool, gotta drink just one cup of sweeten drink while drowning my self with water after that, and that I must not eat rice EVER at berbuka and I must get back to the gym after class. I was sick and busy for the first 2 weeks of puasa so I went to the gym only once. I must keep my 6 kg off, I MUST!!! For the love of Padini pants and finding new love interest. I MUST!!!!! ARGGHH!!! what time is it!!! Must get enough sleep, lack of sleep causes weight gain.. Tidor2 ...!!!!!!

Hot Stuff 2

Its a Sunday and I am still not feeling well yet, my meds are finished and yet I still have a runny nose and fever. 4 days man.. this is the longest fever I got that I could remember. One of the many challenges of Ramadan.

Sleeping is good during ramadan as long as you still remember to pray :D. I was tired, really tired, mentally, emotionally and physically tired. Fasting has really exposed all of my weakness that I used to cover up with eating and recently exercising. Since I can't really do both during the daytime I am switching to other religious activity to make up for it. People say don't think about it too much, let it go with the flow or just do it, sadly I am trying hard to follow it. Its facing the problem head on, am I ready or prepared to face it?. I hate to say I don't know but I really don't.

*I still miss someone I know very dearly, we are so near yet so far. Maybe its my fault, maybe its not. What ever happens, already happens, I just wish I could turn back time and return to that happy time and place.